by the time i got the news...

...i was totally blank! i was like, OMG OMG, is it true? frankly speaking, i can't believe what i heard and totally cannot accept the news. it was about him. he already had a new one. it had been 4 years i kept my feeling towards him. i was not happy at all instead of depressing. i was so shocked. i was told by a friend of mine that he had an affair with someone who is older than him! damn it!

but now, i realised something. he was lonely without someone he loved. that's why he could find 'her' to be his sweetheart. ahhh, what a waste to think of someone who doesn't belong to you. we did have some chat before he left pg. he said sorry then i asked why. but he didn't answer me so i just guess that he felt guilty when he got someone else and forgot about me and he answered yes. ' i'm sorry for not telling you the truth' then i said it's ok. it doesn't matter now as you are someone's bf. so just forget about me and try to make her happy. always make her laugh like what you did to me before.

when it comes to him, i always remembered the time when we still got together. it was wonderful. he was a cool guy that i'd ever met. i was an impatient person, i admit that so whenever i was not in the mood, i always mad at him. i let off my anger towards him but he was just being okay. although there were some arguments between us but he was the one who would give in and let me be a 'winner'. so sweet to me. he's a kind of person who likes to be all-the-time-with-a-person-he-loved of. and it was really made me irritated. but he was still cool when i directly talked to him about that.

i think there are more to tell here but it will not bring any benefits since it was the past. it is enough if i just keep it in my memory. i myself am just hoping that he will get the happiness that he always dreams of. i know he will because once he loves someone, he will not cheating on 'her'. unless his partner does not loves him. that's it! 

but i will never ever forget the phrase 'i love her forever'. the truth is, he lied to me!

Y.