F

i have friends. oh, who on earth doesn't has friend right? but the comprehend one is 'her'. let me replace 'her' by the letter F. okay, F has been friend with me about 6 years and so many things we had gone through together before ignoring her. not actually ignoring because sometimes we sat together with other friends of ours and had a chit-chat or more to gossiping. well, girls are always girls!

maybe it is more to ignore her feeling. yeah, feeling! i admit that i am a person who always ignoring people when meeting someone new. okay, hate me now.  means that, i was ignoring her when i had a new friend. see, what a bad person i am, iknowthat. but now, when recalling back all my actions towards her, i was like, blerghh! what had i done. ehh, but i didn't do bad things towards her okay. only then i know i'm a selfish. 

likewise, i know that F is truly offended on my behaviour. i shouldn't do that. and recently, she said something that really touched me. it was terrible. i felt GUILTY! guilty y'know. am always hoping that she's gonna be happy with her other best friends. am not a good daughter nor friend. if you are reading this, infinite sorry from me.

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