him again. dont u feel like Im so nauseating?

as-salam.

Ah-ha. it happened last year when he invited me to come for his open house. i thought he invited our friends by his own but actually he just messaged me and asked me to inform the rest. amboihh. but i did it and only zana gave me the positive response.

so, i came to his open house. right after my tuition class. and zana came directly from her house. and i thought there were many girl friends but only me and zana. what a shame! but it would be okay as long as there was a friend of mine to keep me company.

and there were many boy friends okay. as i said earlier, it was okay. just friend rite. so then, i came early and zana was still not showing herself. she told me that she'll be coming late but at that time i was already in front of his house. and i decided to wait outside until zana came.

and he asked me to come first but i refused. so i just stayed outside. waiting for zana. and he stayed outside too but we didn't chat much. i was just sitting and at times looking at him reading/replying messages with grinning smile on his face. superb! every time i was looking at him reading the messages, he would smile........ *i could see the happiness on his face*

and the worst, i saw him talking on the phone, and at times he was laughing and sometimes smiling. okay, from that i concluded that he was talking to someone special. but my mind refused to accept it. i didnt know why do i feel so.

till zana came, he was still the same. but i just calmed myself and we stepped inside and just having chit chat with zana and eating and then called my dad to fetch me then i returned home. *too many 'and'*   andddd during we were there, he was still the same - facebooking, messaging and at times calling with grinning smile on his face and no more sadness.

we were just have a short chit-chat, not like the old one. i didnt want him to entertain me like an angel but at least as a friend, dont be too stick with your gf[phone] and left me and zana alone. 

i think, it's enough now. i always remind myself to refrain from saying anything and just forget him but seems like it didnt work, ea? sorry.

Y.